If you study the personalities, I am a classic beaver/type A/melancholy/insert your own term here. I need a plan and a list and a calender. I'm slightly OCD and have been known to carry multiple calenders to keep organized.
Living without a plan and having to rely on how quickly other people do their work has been horrible for me. I've been planning on moving Monday, however it wasn't until 3:30 today that I knew for sure that it would happen. I've tried to let things go and "live for the moment," but it has been a struggle.
Today was one of my low days in this entire process. I'm not sure what it was. I just felt so close and so far away from getting to where I want to be. I honestly threw a temper-tantrum. I'm ashamed to say it included me saying, "why does God do this to me?" I laid down to take a nap and prayed: "God, I just blogged about your faithfulness. I need you to be faithful now." He kindly replied, "You also blogged about how you needed to be faithful."
So quick am I to praise him and hope on my blog or facebook to say things are great when they are, but how quick am I to complain when I don't see him working. I was not faithful in my praise today, only in my whining.
Psalm 55:22 says, "Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken." Yes, we may have to wait until the 11th hour. I have done that so many times, I don't know why I doubted today. However, I am working on my faithfulness to praise and wait on him. I need to give him my cares and allow him to work it out, even if I have to wait and scrap my calendar!