Monday, October 29, 2012

Though he slay me ...

I really don't want this blog to be a lot of posts where I whine about my life. I hope that it never seems like that. There are a lot of things that God has brought me to and is bringing me through that I am learning from, it's just stretching and a process. Honestly, I'm not a huge fan of stretching.
We are currently in a 90 days Bible class where we read through the entire Bible in 90 days. Last week was Job. I've always thought, "Well, at least I'm not Job." So many times though, we are just that. We might not physically lose all that Job did, but there are times when God allows us to be tested so that our faith can grow.
Today I went to the doctor. My appointment was great; the baby is doing well. However, I just found out that I am going to have to switch doctors because of some insurance stuff. It will be a blessing financially to us, but it's a pain. I'm so blessed to be in Parma living out God's plan, but living in an apartment is a huge pain. So many things have come to us that are blessing us, but they have brought their own trials and tests and hardships. It's hard to not focus on the difficult.
Then we look at Job. God continually spoke this verse to me this afternoon: "Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him" (Job 13:15). I know he'll work it out. I know that our finances will be okay. God has been so faithful to us and has taught us through our faithfulness to him. He has given us a great deal and has brought us here. I know that he didn't bring us here to "slay" us. However, my hope is in him because he gives me joy and peace.
What if God has said, "Look at them, Satan, there is no one on earth like them. They are blameless and upright." I want to live up to Job's description. Job was blessed in the end and his life ended greater than it began. That is my hope!

Thursday, October 25, 2012

My heart's desire

So, It's been almost 3 months since I have posted here. To be honest, I've been frustrated with life, God, you name it. I didn't want to blog because I felt like I wasn't hearing from him or that he was even talking to me.
My last blog started with me telling you that I don't like change... Here are the things that I have changed:
1. I'm pregnant and expecting our 3rd baby on April 29.
2. We have put an offer on the first house that we originally wanted 5 months ago... the one I originally blogged about us NOT getting
3. I started working in the church office.
4. I coached junior high volleyball.
5. Last week, I left my job in the church office so that I could start this week teaching 7th grade.

I learned quickly after school started that I missed teaching more than I ever thought that I would. I found myself praying for God to remove the desire to teach from my heart. I knew that he had asked me to step away from teaching and step away from a job and students that I loved! I just didn't understand why.
I was hired because the 7th grade teacher was able to get another job that God is going to use to bless her family. Her life verse is Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will grant you the desires of your heart." Because she has been faithful, I am living out her life verse.
God taught me to do everything that I did to the best of my ability - whether it was making coffee or folding 230 church bulletins. I only ever wanted to do what he wanted me to.
He told me that he would be faithful, and he has been! I'm back in the classroom - I'm teaching history, science, and Bible. In the last 4 days I have felt more fulfilled shadowing than I have in a long time. Bloomfield was an amazing school and experience for me. I loved everything about it and almost every moment of it. However, God's will for me was to move here and be in this place. I'm seeing his hand move and his plan unfold before my eyes.
He has granted me the desires of my heart. I'm not only teaching, but I'm teaching next door to my husband! We work in the same department. I'm working in a school, that is in a church that has embraced my family and I more than we could imagine!
There are things that haven't worked as much as I thought they would - I'm still in an apartment. But I have seen God grant me so many of my desires, I can't wait to see what's next!